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NOT SURPRISED BUT ITS BS!!!!
BS of all BS surrounding 420 FOUND THIS OUT TODAY!!!
I have awaited this decision for months and although i am not suprised i am pissed that all the Health issues have been put aside again because of probably big funding from the drink and big pharma companies!!!
and it is as simple as the above if they made it legal. especially for medical purposes but they not giving a dam!!!
to me if its what helps someone and yet denied in any way that is against human rights. But then the Torys wont be caring about that if they get there way there is not going to be a human rights act!!!! OMG SO ANGRY!!!
especially when there is so much evidence i saw a link just last week about the USA saying no because the same reason and well dont get me started with big pharma!!! Link below
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1075973112482999&id=905570326189946
https://www.facebook.com/plugins/post.php?href=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fdannysaff.sharp%2Fposts%2F4305154482689&width=500“>https://www.facebook.com/plugins/post.php?href=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fdannysaff.sharp%2Fposts%2F4305154482689&width=500
and i could go on and on but i think the next link says most of it without spelling it out!!!
and going to leave this last little reminder of whats going on globally re this!!!
but then what do i know i just live with pain daily and know this helps yet denied!!! makes me sick to the stomach to think the same people passing these laws etc get everything they want and we are globally paying for it not them!!!! weather you currently in job or not some way you are paying for there lifestyle. while they leave it endless months for this!!!
well not much more i can say apart from how dare i like a herb for my health rather than big pharma BS!!! so when i can afford to or when i can get hold of i will be continue to medicate myself this way, especially when i have a drs letter spelling that fact out!!!!
I AM STILL HOPING THAT SCOTLAND WHO HAD PUT THE RECOMMENDATIONS IN
might trial here but thats one thing i would not mind being the test board to but weather politics will do i have no idea i think with the people now to push there human right!!!!
anyways could go on for ages and not going to because just makes me mad!!! so for now peeps
love and peace
lichtielass out !!
Lichtielass & opfree TOTALLY Unscripted
http://truthfrequencyradio.com/op-free-world-with-jeremy-amp-derek-65839/
(#OpFreeWorld shows self district after 24hours) but I will try source a copy and upload to my lichtie ty channel if I can work out to do it!!!🤔😞lol and replace the link above if does disappear 😉😆
So was travelling most of yesterday but was sure I would be about for Evolution #OpFreeWorld on TFR little did I know the universe was already working as I never for one second thought I would be live for nearly 2 hours and Derek was really great.
So when coming in to listen to #OpFreeWorld I heard was only Derek and thought oh my 2 hours speaking on your own is A Lot. So messaged op to see if he needed wing woman for the day!!! Which he was more than happy to try & nervous was not at all until hit live body shaking all over lol trying to control my shakes to not hear in my voice!!!! 🙈
I had previously spoke to Derek on Skype and been speaking with Jeremy about the new live media stream / hub and maybe doing my own show. And when spoke last with Jeremy that morning he hadn’t been to bed so wasn’t suprised one bit that he never got to the show but I have nothing but praise for the #OpFreeWorld boys and all the work done by others that are working along side #OpFreeWorld as Derek mentioned not everyone in back ground gets seen in public because many are #Anonymous that cant speak out or can’t be named even down to the editors of pics to sharing the info. Over last couple of years I can’t mention the amount of support world wide for one reason or another people are identifying with what #OpFreeWorld are trying to do. And I for one think it’s great!!!
It was time to make the next step forward and last night’s show helped in building my confidence about going forward. And the people that are now helping me are so switched on they know even when I don’t know what I talking about myself!!! 😂😂
A special thanks to #Tiffer #wookies cave because if wasn’t for u guys I defo wouldn’t be going forward it’s only because the support I get from u guys that keeps me going.
But also to all the host on TFR because so much good info comes out that it’s worth pursuing the truth to these story’s. Kev and whistles of course!!!! But to Joe, Frank, Popeye, Kenn Webb you all been great with different things I have approached u guys with u guys really setting the bar high love it!!!
And well jeremy & Derek what can I say lol I defo known along with #Anonymous & #OpFreeWorld now if wasn’t before. The whole reason for #lichtielass to become #Anonymous was so I could spk up for people that couldn’t because of where they lived or what they do for a career or maybe just can’t because they have family. For whatever reason because I know one thing for sure I can’t shut up no matter where that gets me!!! And with help of iain / NAC and others only growing into something more!!👌💚
To everyone that’s been in touch regarding going forward much more to come but due to being worldwide help it’s getting it all flowing right. But weather u can help edit a video , chat , share a post etc all mounts up to something bigger and that’s #BChange
Everyone has busy lives and not easy but if we can put as little effort as what the government’s putting into the mess the are running things I really think people would be so surprised to see how much we can change things for the better of everyone!!! Globally!!!
Right going to head better get some stuff done but will try get copy of the show and if anyone interested in helping lichtielass going forward please get in touch on most social networks etc
Had old XP PC had been working with and was good enough until it fried the other day NAC did try sort it but totally fried!!! But will make sure it’s only few weeks till I can afford a reconditioned one then try stop me going forward especially with the #Anonymous #OpFreeWorld live stream see where it takes me. But last night was another small step forward into the brave unknown!!! Do 1 thing every day that scares you it keeps u alive!! Learn something new everyday , think about others around you & remember to laugh whenever u can as often as u can it’s good for the soul
AND
#BChange
For now peeps 🌏 💚✌
#Lichtielass
The Power of Money & Bull Shit!!!
So everything was appears to be smooth running now!! I thought yesterday was going to pay bills yet was declined!!!
So checking account me thinking finally after 8 months something would be finally sorted but no 8 full months of living like shit because they can’t get there shit together
But no no so was awake with pain from 5am terrified would miss signing on time stayed up, my friend that helps me made sure by coming up because he knows my memory etc doesn’t really work so not only my day I have to factor all that in!!
Get there and couldn’t sit down and not very happy after being told would just follow on then it doesn’t!! Asked if there was any ways of being later time like in afternoon when I am more physically able!! But no they say afternoons are just for universal Credit how can this possible be!!
I don’t like being ill but am I don’t like being unemployed either & certainly don’t mind signing on if I have too!!! But they could at least help you get to these things!!! They say they are disability friendly yet look at it!!! And I know is not just me and don’t want it to be anyone else either after this year!!! Wouldn’t want on my worse enemy.
I have heard they do on purpose to make people miss then get sanctions set I don’t know if they make it hard or is just like that me feeling on it is in the pic below!!!
So in days of over sensorship and major problem with surveillance I find it very hard to accept that the government couldn’t have this sorted out within the 3 month Assessment time not 8 dam months!!! And the more I think about it the more mad I get!!!! Just thinking quickly…. while writing this brings up few not all
I have online footprint for sure which that it’s self can tell you I don’t sleep much up most nights then I use pain app that scores my pain. Also my phone not only counts my steps calls etc it also bluetooth hooks up to my disability car!!! Which then traces all routes and even I can look up a route from previous days etc. The Government can even look up plenty Dr’s appointments been one a week recently and that’s not including pain Dr’s or clinic and other health appointments which most have been out of town. There is so much evidence yet nearly 9 months on from coming up with illness this time and yet these dam fools can’t sort it out! !!
And over the last 9 months trying to live run car & try to get away from big pharma free medications are all not easy tasks on £70 week 30 week less for 9 months is
Especially while hearing of #Panamapapers #Torys wealth amongst others although they do seem to be the worst but I bet they don’t even get out of bed for £2000 yet when got changed over to JSA got my P45 from government and total from last year because I was on ESA Assessment time my whole year was just £2500 at the most just shocking when you see what these idiots are not even being out of bed for! !!!
And I know what some will say they can’t look into your life for privacy reasons but that’s another lot of BS!!! They seem to sensor things online from my accounts and I have prove of it so if this is happening why can’t they get this sorted!!!! It’s ridiculous
And it’s not finished because they took so much time with #ESA had to re assessed for #PIP which I can’t get answer from them about which is more worrying because if don’t get my car again then I lose my independence again but not only that I have put in for jobs yet don’t even know if could start job if didn’t have a car!!! And with no decision as yet it just means more uncertainty and worry stress on top of my health getting worse daily with already health issues plus the stress. I still have valid sick note from a dr which doesn’t matter at the moment.
I had hoped to have things sorted so could get on with new venture but even that can’t get sorted!!!
But won’t stop me !!!
One other thing that I think many will notice they days is that company’s are the real winners from Government Benefits weather you stuck in contracts or credit cards to keep yourself going then off course the companies get all the money same with are they get all mobility money for car another company, but still petrol etc it’s all just helping these dam company’s!!! Which they say helps with jobs but well more and more lay offs I not sure on that one people need to take power back or AWAY somehow from governments before any of this will get better for all!!!
Hopefully my next blog about my health will be better than this crap one but need to blog it these days to remember what’s going on and kind of glad I do these days! !!
I still hopefully going to get something done by tomorrow 12 may as 21 years since passed my driving test and was going to make that the date for doing new things but we will see just even a youtube video be ok and not expensive so watch this space …. better days around the corner and well u can…
For now peeps 💚 & ✌
Lichtielass
Benefits, Tax invasion & Election heating up!!!!
So not blogged for while so just a all rounder as much going on at the moment it’s like one direction is health and just the management of it all in daily life yet getting pulled in all directions that doesn’t help my health any!! Reminds me of toy soldiers song getting dragged in another direction
But after 7 months finally had ESA assessment & a last minute PIP assessment on same day!!! But felt for 2 reasons should try get to both as actively been looking for direction for health, council , MP etc I wanted to make the effort.
So the day before I got told about PIP assessment and working with CAB got info relevant to take with me to assessment which I needed a copy of my PIP form that was 10 miles away because it was the only physical copy!!! They couldn’t email or pdf etc!!! Couldn’t believe it but after the last 3 years has taught me anything you need these things to refer to not only that for my memory reasons also!!! So day before assessments was taken up preparing.
But by preparing that ment getting friend told of info so knew also had to awake me if was even sleeping as it was I didn’t sleep but was more worry about missing appointment so just stayed awake all night it was the only way my body would work for driving and getting into 17 miles drive for 9am!! But after bitching that I have been running into walls for months it was worth staying awake maybe not the worry part but most nights I awake with pain but often then when sleep it’s deep for few hours until pain back its constant.
PIP assessment she was very nice offered me water before we started but was half way across the room there was no way I was going back!! Enough pain when walking would rather just wait till this was done. I covered my thoughts on the pain but joked I couldn’t be bothered! !! Which looking back if that was a test they could interpret wrong…but however I feel humour & laughing helps me deal with the ongoing struggle with chronic pain along with other things but also I do have a nervous laugh at times too which is just natural madness I have lmao but this often not taken into what was being taken account off I ran through typical week etc but something didn’t seem right I don’t know can’t explain it but will find out soon…
ESA assessment went little better I just went straight to there as was in Dundee couldn’t walk far no money to go for cuppy others had been there for hour or more!! Which I was also but like I said I expected the wait but couldn’t sit in car couldn’t stand or even sit!!!
So today I feel knackered and just had wisdom tooth out but because of yesterday I feel physically shattered just hope this is it and don’t need to appeal it’s so draining on top of fighting health and trying to have normal life!!!
It will be interesting to see the outcome with them being on same day in different company’s but we will see!!!!
Also lastly yes you get travel back but not that day so unsure but it’s not my point my point is everything is so fractured they don’t know left from right. Yet they trying to tell us
Just as writing this I saw this article it just points out the problem they agree pay deal but what about millions that not benefited with anything!!
http://m.heraldscotland.com/politics/14427557.Scottish_Parliament_staff_agree_pay_deal/
Remind me when does better together happen and look like???
like this story for instance just shows scale of the problem
https://m.facebook.com/groups/1964602733765891?view=permalink&id=2014756862083811
And while been going through this hell I have listened to millions moan about dodge dave and just find it so sicking about all the money stashing as it’s only tip of the ice berg!! Until everyone is effected by this one way or another I see on change coming
A BUT ALWAYS HOPE OVER FEAR!!!
So after all this yesterday I got a tooth out today but sleep pattern all over the place normally even more so when going through this
Oh and I got my vote papers through still to decide on that one!!!! But that’s for another day but I still don’t think the assessments were totally right but we will know if few weeks to a month let’s hope anyways but something tells me is not over yet but another step ahead always look on bright side and hope!!!
Ok been hell of few days hope to finish this then head over to chat on the #wookies cave at wookies cave for KBS in around an hour maybe see you there good people
For now peeps 💚&✌
#lichtielass
For now peeps 😉💚✌
Benefits/ Health & Broken system & Anonymous help:)💚✌
So this week I kind of lost it after still awaiting ESA assessment and never happening!!!! Pain so severe it’s just been even hard to stay awake at the start of the week because was just so tired and sore in spasms and just not able to eat or socialize much at all!!! If fact even sleeping through things that I love. And the weeks since Xmas has been so hard both in less benefits & no real movement from anything since being off on sick since last September feeling crap, but still fighting a broken system still trying to make things right for family member as fit my own life around appointments, coming off big pharma stuff staying new meds (so far not any better) & if run out of pain medication running around to drs to get more and it’s always more hassle that it’s really worth & often if my Dr not there get told no or its a hassle, I would rather get pain management sorted long term but can’t see this happening anytime soon although closer today that I was this time yesterday morning!!!! But it’s getting terrible!!
above it’s getting just about like this
I actually got a OT home assessment and was the lady that had been here before and was so happy to know it was her as she was the one that got me the move to this house (over 3 years ago) & has seen the issues that effect me before and see what mess I am in again although much better than once was with PTSD but physically struggling with my conditions. And she said herself the circumstance I find myself in after the 3 years of carry on can’t be helping yet many in same position between the DWP and 3rd party Maximus (previously ATOS) & the Scottish government they don’t come out all that good in this either!!!
she was most worried the fact I can’t sit on chair or sofa I explained how much as well as showing her, it was clear for her to see the decrease by how I live my my house you can’t explain it to a Dr in an 8 min appointment I really needed this. Also explained money situation and that I had put forward to pip to try get this all sorted!!! But when and if who knows no one has answers to that!!!
Then after not hearing for anyone the pain clinic phoned while OT was here giving them the issue and explaining I am now going forward to get pain specialist Dr appointment which I haven’t seen in 10 years and really was told months ago was on list but however I am now just awaiting appointment!! Fingers crossed everything starting to move on a bit!!!
So I didn’t sleep Wednesday night all night down to no meds left and not long finished my herbal meds few days before was in for a long two days Tuesday till thursday until medication was dropped off was dreading it as had same bother for weeks and really didn’t feel good yet didn’t want the hassle of finding Dr etc for one day was just going to lay low for the day then the post came was so surprised there was post and good post from my #Anonymous Chronicles News
So have had two gifts sent now from don and all admin working well together and getting to know each other & regularly in chat to help our just to chat. Don has had one hell of a time getting this going but finally we seem to be all working towards the same goal that don envisioned and has come to life!! It’s great and I know don personally has big plans and I really hoping to help in any way I can to bring dons wish come true and mine but he’s had the guts to go for it I just coming on board he and other Armin have had a hard time with it but we really getting there!!
So everyone getting but we now at the stage of keeping this website open while people still receive medication on top of other admin cost so we are needing donations of any kind now to keep this going and well we all suffer from health issues and I for one are very proud of what we are achieving together against the odds…
We also have new pics for group if people could post these around get the word out for help in all ways get us to where we need to be to help more people going forward. we are one, we stand together especially over one plant that has so many good healing properties being denied to many in need now not when whoever decides it’s legal by law on paper!!!
At least we getting somewhere instead of endless phonecalls to the gov& 3rd party’s they having me into a corner I maybe could get out of before or even if I didn’t before I am dammed if I sitting around waiting on them deciding what they thinks best yet nothing happening at least I am doing things and most importantly helping others and is that not what life should be about!!! that so we canOne last thing as this will be forwarded to the groups if people wish for next gift come next Saturday so if any donations come before that we can be organized for post right guys out of here want to get through two seasons of fringe yet this weekend!!
SPK soon peeps
#Lichtielass
To sow a seed of many kinds at once into 2016
https://m.facebook.com/groups/905740346153528?view=permalink&id=1039532756107619
Above is basically all banking and business all with what’s wrong with the world today… In very quick way, although always do more research than take my word for it!!!! Think for yourself
https://m.facebook.com/moira.cook/posts/10153797343049694
Above was someone’s part on fb I noticed at random but noted..
Words and how they have become and why or when.. All begs questions….
Like words mean & law & in media!!!
Law for the land of the culture of the land, law of money being water money!!!
Very interesting video…
No words are by chance!!! It’s all by design..
So in saying this I will go on to say how, nothing has changed in my 2016 just another strong if broken promises and locked into contacts from either sky, BBC media, energy or DWP or government. Nothing sorted nothing even started at all!!!🙅
So was looking into maybe courses I could learn new things in and there is a few but it will all depend on what I choose or weather I even choose this route sometimes learning the harder way is better than any college course or university if you only end up in the debt to a system that’s not helping now never mind if I made this choice!!
Not keen on learning old ways for one I can’t sit long enough, have terrible headache within lectures etc when at school was terrible for falling asleep I like to learn things hands on so not sure about that either…
So when I have said all the above I still wonder what help is available for people once all this considered
My health is like a never ending cycle of pain, keeping your mind off the pain and on other things is extremely exhausting at times and that brings me back on to the above links really
I see governments, hospitals, government 3 party company’s, bankers all the other things like mobility company for the money they take weekly from my disability but leaves nothing for other needs like food, social all things people need but also other company’s like gas and electric etc etc it’s all goes in direct flow to these company’s. Not to the average people that really need that money £146 a fortnight just doesn’t go anywhere once the main company’s have there money… Although in Scotland we are better off than many it’s still not right
And you can guess where I am going next!!!!!
I only receive this because the company that’s working with DWP has no Dr to assess me even after waiting 13 weeks assessment time. Do u not think all assessments should be at least started in that time!!! Well I went to one after the 13weeks and was told they were not able to because it had to be Dr due to my conditions. But couldn’t provide when I could come back so just in the line of getting passed about!!! But if you pass from a Dr who doesn’t even know you!!! It’s OK the money will be refunded to you!!! Omg that doesn’t help now with ongoing issues they have no idea!!!!
So anyways due to money it’s not been great for my personal medication not the ones I get throw at me left right and center the more green type the herbal type I bought vape at Xmas hoping this year i would address my concerns at coming off as much big pharma as I could but also to be able to get what helps me easier and a more controlled way!! IE getting it easier and having different products to get me through the different pains or to get appetite and thing alike….
I have blogged already about new group involved with atm that I am hoping to report is helping me loads with that. Like anything of this kind many would love it to fail but really hope in a months time I have good reports towards this and although I have only been involved since Jan16 I really going to do as much as I can with it to help other and myself in same position around the world. Is new to me and I know there’s been few bumps along the way but I hope to help where I can and help this happen
I also have a few meetings for next month so hopefully I will be a step closer in deciding my future on so many different reasons and things to consider come end of Feb u just going to have to watch this space…
For now peeps ❤ & ✌
Lichtielass
Health update hemp & big pharma & weed ☺✌
Ok so thought since was about a month I should update the health situation on the side of using more herbal methods….. And considering been coming off many big pharma medications for all of this year so really not been great, never knowing what was coming the next day or if one day would morth into 3 days because of pain or lack of sleep from the hell of coming off medication & couldn’t sleep. It’s not been easy & unless I found a way out of this in some way there was no hope!!
Having used hemp oil (any health food shop seems to have now) now for nearly two months I have continued to use even tho not the best taste or having oil but not to bad if you keep in the fridge I try to have at least one spoon fully daily but have gone back on days pain just not giving in at all!! And do find it helps even the soreness in hands legs & knees seem to be better the days I have forgotten I have noticed, yet never had high hopes at all for that at all with always being told about the THC values of cannabis in the past and not much more apart from its BAD…🙅!!!
I am still on my first two green and gold CBDOil plus which I have been using in my one vape when around family and also to get into system in the morning… My worst time if the day!!!
My biggest problem so far has been getting the real stuff to either make my own oil or smoke, in my area there is plenty going about one min then none the next it’s expense of trying to source is cheaper the more you buy but living off £70 week at Christmas for the past month this has been jumping down £30 without warning at all from the government just there in my account for bills, food, and pain relief petrol to run the car that I do need to get about due to mobility.. And then it’s back to the cycle of pain so yes I think I have started to crack it and use what when I can but it would be loads easier if could get all the things without hassle or reprisal in any way…
I have had all that when I was younger and know I could again but it’s not worth the hassle getting involved in stuff just because of weed. And I only ever used it after party’s until I was ill and I knew that helps but drs held that as not helping, but in fact since coming off meds been much better, again tho when not got anything it can become days of pain
I have found a very nice person online that didn’t want money up front to send few grams of hash and it was great stuff and it was stuff off old not what my area has lately. So there is some nice people out there that do at least point a direction for you out there but I have never done this as had no trust in anyone when comes to money and internet and not got my head around bitcion or whatever but going to in near future….
So from my 2 month so far experiment is going well I have even been told it’s cost effective to make even CBD oil for athomisers that way I am having less tabacco also!!
Although I was warned not to stop smoking while coming off medication but would like to especially when I don’t think tobacco is what I want I only used because of joints but using the #OneVape and things helps although if I want a fag I will I won’t deny myself of it but nor do i want to smoke loads…
Then tonight I was trying to think out my pain relief for the next two weeks, now I completely off venlafxine now no more going to discuss with Dr tomorrow about going on the other as it’s been advice from pain clinic nurse….
Anyways I got a message today from some friends that tried the oil with much leaves and because it’s a started think will be great hope I get that… no more worries and use that like I used the CBD oil and try that going into Jan
So all in health bad but keeping at bay!!! Off more big pharma is just the supply and the cost and money changing that’s been half the problem for managing it daily….
Going forward I think and hope more big pharma stuff to come off if the oils etc become more accessible to help along side drs advice
Still awaiting money sorted, on list for pain Dr!! And OT referral in but everything if waiting!!! The last 3 years been waiting it’s so annoying…. And very frustrating when you can’t change your situation!! The best we could anyways when backed by silly system
So let’s hope it’s easier to get in 2016 so can get usage right!!
Right health blog for 2015 completed just two more to go lol
I will leave this here as never to much to learn of the benefits of this
http://healthytreatment.info/top-10-marijuana-myths-and-facts-very-interesting-informative/
All the best for everyone in 2016 let’s hope it’s better available and not at the cost it is now!!!
For now peeps ❤&✌ and keep ☺
Sooooo saga continues!!!
So I have left it more than 72 hours, some feedback and calmed down slightly but still not much to let u understand you will need a bit more info of why I got here….
In jan 2013 they changed the benefits which made me struggle really badly never really got sorted out as Atos nurse had seen me and was given 12 points instead of 15, which pushed me into JSA,
There was much rangling at the start the job center saying to look for 21 jobs a day but due to health I couldn’t do this so was putting appeal in for ESA while continue to sort out JSA, with help of CAB I was working with them to find a way that they would accept and not stop my money….
Then my gran had few falls I had nothing going with Atos which was dragging there feet with appeal, couldn’t agree settlement on JSA & by then I really needed to be with my gran even staying with her over the worst so became her carer all was well again set up all my bills etc around dates of payments
Well because I wasn’t managing after 3 years of no day off after much lipsevice from carers saying they would help to get away for the night just one night after 3 years would be good but never happened x2. Not that I wouldn’t have paid for night away myself but this what was getting offered but it only seems to be offered if my gran takes care!!! Which she doesn’t want!!
So back in September 15 I couldn’t keep going was in much pain and was coming off medication all this year and down to 1 more week then will be completely off medication I have been on for 14 years yes it’s not easy but it’s what had been needed for years!!! I wish I could say I was not taking any medication at all now but alas the way things are at the moment I still need for chronic pain so yes I am off the worst of them but I can’t see the day I off them long-term although I hope for the future?!! Again awaiting a specialist pain Dr appointment all this year and been told I could wait long enough
It was only in April this year I finally got my car and omg what a great help that is but again was going through Atos which by then had fallen out with government and was ending there contact. But someone with a Scottish accent called and ended up with the mobility disability and a little o for care I get help with mainly things that’s manual handling shop or house etc but this was never assessed properly like I said I just got a call then didn’t believe it until confirmation came through the post!!! They had given me a year with DLA with car but only a year to the week so within that week I got my car, because if you didn’t have at least have one year on the entitlement you couldn’t get a car… Like my blog the other day I loved driving in fact if hadn’t driven from a young age of 17 I don’t think I could have worked as long as I did!!
So I have been on a less money for 13 weeks now and because my DLA was never assessed properly (phone call)I am really feeling it, it was ok to start with as already knew I would have to wait at least 13 weeks as had been down this road before and even knew it might be longer and was aware of this.. . but when you were not managing before then stopping caring full time for my gran out of my own health it for worse over the 13 weeks.
And because it wasn’t assessed the last time the system really is broken atm not just adapting my health coming off medication & seeing what I am like after being on mind alerting drugs for years, find out who I am now!!! Discover myself again to…
So last week I was really struggling , I called DWP & explained the situation and that my health want good and that I was awaiting a OT referral going through the social work also & if they had any info on when I would get a assessment so I could get things sorted as the fortnight before without warning at all they found it easy to slash again what I was given by another £30 which when u get very little that’s a big jump!!! Without warning…. So actively was looking to better my situation plus try to get sorted out before new year!!!! After 3 years of nothing was hoping next year will be different!!! Maybe the world is the same but here in Scotland we all about seeing the old out and New Year in even before new year in the lead up to the change into new…
So they were all very understanding and helpful when I called the DWP they saw it was over the time they called my local (well most local to me!!!) 3 party assessors no longer ATOS but starts with a M mirium or something like that.
I explained on the phone the different clinics that I attended and have been actively for the last 10 years. The last also checked with the local office to find out if my first form had reached them and they had info they came back they did they then went on to book the appointment with the assessor and although early days are not great for me weighing it up I wanted it out the way so 17 miles away so taken time for my friend to get me awake and ready & mobile to be leaving in plenty time for the appointment at 11.30!!!
So we got there early couldn’t hardly walk the distance because they don’t let non workers park there even with badge, then when got into the right area has to sit half way just into the door there was a seat…. Having been there before I knew it was ground floor but it was very long halls but nothing I couldn’t manage just stopping a few times, my knee worse this week since nearly off medication or maybe just feeling it more I don’t know?? Got to the door buzzed to enter had chat with receptionist (we had same birthdays & so did our grans lol) so very ok she also took back details so they could get fuel back for attending. Have a seat it shouldn’t take long
I took drink from cooler then sat down (although not for long at a time as can’t)
Sure enough this lady took me into room explained the procedure and who she was (can’t remember her name but will be on DWP form!) Very nice lady actually on way into her room she had already noticed my left leg was not playing nice that morning just on the way in and I hadn’t mentioned it I was actually trying to not bring attention to it because my back was hurting more when limp it was not great but ok all was fine I was there at least. And on time thanks to a friend!!!
So she asked me about conditions I suffer as there is a few even she said as much when we first sat down saying I didn’t know where to start with you today…
She then went on to ask about when the pain & nerve damage started. I replied by saying that my drs had looked back my notes and that I had suffered pain of one kind or another since the age of 8 and that I wouldn’t have really known pain at that age, but I also suffered from what was called growing pains in teens & also lost feeling in my legs for the first time ever. But since my PTSD had settled more the drs where taking it more seriously as they thought it was on my head due to PTSD but although not completely over it don’t suffer so bad with flashbacks etc but that was what took me off work before because I had just always managed my life in a way I could manage since young but I also explained I had a bad bout of measles which had then lead to bring in hospital with suspected case of Encephalitis when I was aged 5 and some would say I was to young to know the difference but looking back over my life I was not as clumsy or likely to fall before the measles either did I not like the light that gave me headaches… Anyways I degres I just said about timeline but had always work since was able to but due to the moving and lifting over the years it had taken its tole on my back and other things that was already not perfect but had a car when working and could do the job when i was there until PTSD hit from my house fire. And how my mouth etc pain and teeth out all on Same side. This is when she stopped the assessment as there was some things that she being the nurse practitioner she could assess and that my drs had been approached for information but this was not for coming (like what happened 3 years previously)!!!
Now because I had asked for this appointment it is not clear as yet but I have been told yesterday that my drs were approached but don’t have the time yet as to when they were asked for info but that’s the point I have done everything right and able to do yet this 13 week assessment time has somewhere went missing but my story might be long …
But I am only one voice how many more people are going through this daily and the impact on family’s anyone that’s going though any diversity is shocking, I do know how lucky I am but also realize when it’s just getting to much. What would have to happen in your life to make you different from me or any other out there!!!
We have so much info now days my phone tells many company’s daily where and what I am doing there is no emergency service or sync without my Bluetooth being on in my phone which hooks up to Ford PC chip if not PC!! So they can tell me where I am going before I even know
And not only that my alarms from my old routine with my gran keeps coming up on phone telling me I have so many mins till home or vice verses…..
So I can not understand why in 13 weeks they don’t know all the info they need including medical… I don’t even think it’s the drs I think it’s the way the whole DWP work and the way health is going there is so many things there but really not there yet the government can find out everything I have done in a day and plenty of paperwork and email exchange from different things yet they can let you struggle on until they have u at top of list!!!! Don’t get me started about lists!!! Long enough and has been over a week I am working with cab to try get things sorted but they can only go by the DWP answers will keep you posted
I am only one person and I know many are hurting right now because of this!!!
But my point to this is the 13 weeks they are legally allowed to do this what is actually happening in that 13 weeks because i know i am attending all appointments, handing in sick lines only for them to get lost to have to resend sometimes!!!! And it’s called an assessment phase yet from what I seen to gather it doesn’t matter what they must have something done in the 13 weeks or why would they say assessment time!!!
So what’s it for to see if making people already in medical conditions worse or the money to it all our is it just everything so fracture in society now that they just pass you from one place to another without thinking on. I get on well with my Dr and find it hard to believe she wouldn’t write it up because i was reminded that my Dr got paid for giving this report and I bet it’s not just £10 they get for it!!!.
Anyways trying to find out when my Dr was approached and that’s where everything lies at the moment apart from on waiting lists!!!!
Lol well have left this long enough to post and I won’t let out hang over me more than it has to especially when I can’t do any more about it myself atm
For now peeps ❤ & ✌
Week two oil and just catch up blog even CERN!!
So thought I would just do general update since that’s full week using the hemp oil👌☺
Got these throughout as knew second step was to get the tools to use the concentrate oil the only one that you seem to be legally allowed to buy both the #cbdoilplus green and gold
I can’t say I am jumping about but for this week it’s been better than the last 3 weeks have just been unbearable!!!
Coming off the anti depressant after over 11 years I can’t believe it!! The amount of weight I have lost already is unbelievable!!! I am not really a camera person so no pic at this point.
So how I did I manage my pain last week was great so second week concentrate oil to try I am loving the #OneV , very impressed with the way it handles, works, cleans etc defo my fav delivery system at thee moment and think going forward into 2016 would love to finally stop smoking. Only reason I hadn’t as was using as pain relief but not if oil and vapes I could quiet easily stop smoking so that’s a goal for 2016 🙌👌 fingers crossed anyways.
As for getting other stuff what a nightmare most places will deliver but the payment system you have to go though is ridiculous and it’s buyer beware as could be a scammer. You just don’t have any protection. And when on benefits you don’t have money to just lose on a bad deal!!!
If it was legal this wouldn’t be such a problem, the little money I do have spare to but I have to know I going to receive it. Stop the problems for average person trying to get things to help themselves away from big pharma Dr prescription, but the way the system set up is I get NHS Scotland help with any medications I get for years, yet I can’t get this on the NHS and going through assessment time for benefits so they keep back the money but if I win I get back apparently but that doesn’t help when u sitting in a lot of pain or you can’t sleep because your back won’t stop knacking any length of time to let my body or mind settle to sleep.
It’s always worse around week before full moon which it was again so by yesterday I have been doubled over with period pains that I sure as hell don’t think is normal, but never looked into, due to not having kids drs have always not wanted to take the right away but I would have rather they did when I go though this hell!!!
Anyways!!! enough about the women’s parts but was just trying to give u idea that normally I would be Ill for days on the run up to them but not so much this month and also think that’s there hemp oil but will have to get back on this in future blogs or if this was just one off
Sooooo really thinking smoking defo could be kicked into 2016. At this time of year I do try to secretly set myself goals for the year ahead, keep myself on my toes. Being The Change is constantly re assessing your life, I know I need in my life but to help others around me seeing there potential see there really is much to life but you have to go out there and get it!!! U can only help yourself.
Nothing is ever easy in life, I not sure if it really should be easy we all here for a reason, it’s just the reason is not always shown to us. Think everyone had they’re own temple within them it’s up to you to find it. No one or thing in this life can tell you.
But knowing that for years I have suffered yet this really appears to be working & coming off medication at the same time that I have been on and feeling great. I really feel mugged off by the NHS saying for years about mental health when it’s taken me years to prove different and even get the drs on same way of thinking…
I always had chronic pain but just got on with working life until I couldn’t any more, but because my mental health was a problem after a house fire it was just put down to PTSD & GAD but since coming off an anti physcotic medication I have said before I touching wood every time I say it but the last 6-8 months I have not had one flashback of being in the fire!!! Does this mean I finally just got over it, or was the medication doing things to my brain in the first place making me have them???😕
Always more questions
But going through life is that not what it’s all about, asking the questions. I ask the questions because I have a working background and from what I was trained to what’s being done across the world from governments. In all my working roles I was able to question why things worked the way they do. If people not encouraged to question things then it becomes stale, no growth can happen towards the staff team or over all service….
It’s the same when you live on your own, don’t get me wrong I love living that way, but everything falls on you that’s when you start to question things because you see how fragmented society is when you live on your own.
It’s when you start dealing with it all both in a professional role, personal & health issues all come into play. I have started to ask the questions going through the ‘system’ as it’s set up from one department to another then get lost in the system all together🙅. Think of years ago the churches promoted marriage but in a way that was just dividing the roles within the household no matter what dynamics comes into it someone always took lead but other maybe done practical or the more business side maybe it was like it was designed that way. Because the more you question what’s going on around you and why things just can’t be simple these days when really communication is more available to more people around the world today but never seems to be used the right way to help others rather than wealth.
Well to finish I will say here’s to week two will keep you all updates as to how I go. I may not be using the illegal stuff yet but want to document my journey for two reasons.
1 / this is away to be big but knowing the whole way of it really gets from the stuff from the Health shop our whatever there is many non tested strengths out there and when I using for medical I need to know what helps & like everything you know your body better than anyone!!!!
2/ it’s a growing market many don’t know about and may turn to if I can just direct one person so they don’t have to deal with all the red tape that seems to be there, but I will be able to give honest answers as using the things I can at the little money I have.
Lastly I smoked it when at party’s etc when was young but never like I do now but know I know how to use it workout being a walking zombie in fact the medication I have been on makes me more of a zombie than even the lovely herb would ever do.
I know it’s not for everyone and wouldn’t preach it but when in chronic pain you will try anything…
Well away to finish off as freaky Friday tonight on TFR
I will be in chat can’t wait to see all the Friday Wookies in the house. I am going to drop the Kev Baker show from last night in here as I got a mention at the start with my name lol just bit fun at the same time very real news with Alex coming from Ukraine. great show you should check it out if u get the chance.
http://http://truthfrequencyradio.com/the-kev-baker-show-60798/
Talking of which got these mental pics of the red rings like before when CERN was ramped up check out the pics I got today…
Right away to get sorted maybe see u in chat or face book group Spk soon peeps
🙋💚& ✌
But tax credits ok but look at all the small print it effects you all
So haven’t really had much time to catch up with my blogs what a mental week I have!!! With one thing or another is been crazy!!!!
But I did however get these products through the post yesterday, was so happy when they came not used much but yesterday I did and OMG it was amazing as in I felt my back being able to move, (bits that’s normally like a old washing board😞) it was amazing after being in so much pain!!! 😲
I have to remember I am coming off big pharma medication is going to be long process but ongoing fight with that is sending me around the twist!!! But in good way want off of it as much as possible anyway!!! I always going to be withdrawing or balancing my medication of some kind!!
It wouldn’t bother me but this is my 3 month on assessment time due to changes in my pain daily but recently really don’t know one day to another what I will or can’t do!! Although I am Scottish I have noticed many like myself no real different circumstances changed yet lower money doesn’t help when you live on your own and have any medical conditions but try to be as active as I can if I could find a job around my condition so much talent in everyone but I don’t have stand out one apart from big mouth😊. Hitting people benefits is really a nightmare I have tried to do as much cut back as I can but the problems are the big company’s contacts they get you can’t get out of its unbelievable!!! Since Jan 2012 my benefits have been a real stress.
It’s not just that when things change all the bills you have set up ends up going wrong, then you get these letters saying u need to pay when already have a lot of people some elderly getting caught out with these changes I have seen around me or since the change in 2012!!! I don’t mind hard work but can’t do much can become annoying because you can’t get on with daily life comfortably over so many levels
There is away to be the autumn round up of money from George Osborne yet they still s don’t have this process sorted never mind millions of people away to be a lot wrote off with the proposals to tax credit but it has to happen especially in England as much of what was put to local authorities in Scotland this is just beginning to hit England & I really don’t think the normal person knows yet his this is even happening!!!
As I said before I have met with MP before and recently have been in contact with my MSP (still awaiting reply) about ongoing situation. I have lived alone looking enough with health problems to know no one is coming to help. I rely on friends mainly to help me with things I can’t or remind me to do things, and my family but don’t ask them for anything I really need as was brought up to look after yourself no one else going to come running….
But in the last 3 months I have been handing in sick lines due to the smallest of change in circumstances that if I am getting less money because I am on assessment time then why has nothing happened!!! And when I say nothing happened I will explain below is not like I have been sitting awaiting on them being in touch!!!
1/ sick lines photos taken (many went missing last time)
2/ when my gran was assessed they said I should be real to so I called my local council asking to be assessed with the First contact team. Never heard back from them yet either?!!! Will be back in touch soon with them as still need the input.
3/ phone to ask if fit notes have arrived as not had word yet ( they say they will txt when given) I have done post and into local JOB Center
4/ still helping my gran as much as possible so also carers, I have been there
5/ the pain clinic I have been to for 10 years the nurse left who was giving me acupuncture but was starches but because I had stated with two weeks every 3 months this worked! But since she left I gave only been to the pain clinic once but it was discussed I would see a pain specialist Dr but there would be a waiting time. I also at this appointment got one acupuncture received. Which has defo not helped at all before be the second week me back and neck would be bit free and not as sore. But not now, but also have no mention of another appointment from the pain clinic not to mention this long wait for pain specialist.
6/ I have been in touch with Citizens Advice because they had to try and short of the me from Jan 2012 some people ask why I go there they can only advice but really they are the only help I really have had they have been great and they only ones that can observer the behaviour of the Scottish government and Westminster. They help in policy changes amount others but not just that the Tory’s stopped legal aid for many people, so it’s many people using there services
7/ coming off big pharma medication as much as I can which is no fun but I am doing it but also just being health as possible losing weight everything I can do not to live in pain I am trying, since coming off medication for my PTSD I have STOPPED getting flash backs and think more of less over it still might be around but try not let it define me!!! Not coming off anti depressants was at the Dr yesterday and its coming down the next month. I am more hyper coming off this one but I haven’t been off it for at least 13 years had a fight no my hands between drs one wanted me to stay on that but pain clinic thought another would be more suitable I don’t know how I will feel in 4 weeks but hoping maybe I won’t need to go on another I want to see who I am without it, but the day can’t come quick enough as in getting off the ones I am on now it’s really not good coming off any medication but always hate when physical withdrawal happens.
So being on this assessment time does it many sense that I get less money when ill but doing as much as I can daily but also to sort all this out trying every avenues. Yet I am the one with the help of CAB trying to get this all sorted for a less stressful life
So going by the above I really don’t think the system of social work, councils, health and DWP is working do you??
Would love to know if anyone else specially in Scotland is getting this same stuff as that’s the second time in so many months they were able to keep money for me because of this assessment time yet I see no assessments like I carried out when I was working within the care sector and how I was trained!!!
For now peeps 🙋💚✌
Lichtielass 